This weekend=FAIL

I'm going to try to blame it on last week's battle with the funk. I still don't know what ailment crippled me, but I was pretty sure all week that I was going to get a call from the CDC telling me that I needed to be quarantined. I had a list of things to do this weekend, and I got a whole lot of none of them done. So I'll talk about lists. I think to be good at life you need to make them and update them often (or maybe I should insert "to have OCD in life" there). I make all kinds of lists-here's a list of my lists:

1. Life List
2. To Do List
3. To Buy List
4. Vacation List (which spins off a Packing List)
5. Gift List (which can be listed as a sub-category under the To Buy List)
6. Grocery List (no fun version of the To Buy List)
7. List of People Who I Wish Would Get a Resistant Fungal Infection on Their Face

So you get the picture. The list of lists goes on and on. I love lists and they are perpetually updated. They make me feel like I get shit done, even if that shit is the actual making of the list. If you feel like you are productive, then you feel like you are good at life. Even if that productivity is slightly manufactured. It's all about perception.

*Token ADD Sidetrack Thought* One thing I did do this weekend is watch the first two episodes of The Pacific. And I learned that I never have an excuse to be afraid of anything unless I get put in a boat and driven up on the shore of a tropical island where a bunch of soldiers with guns are waiting to blast my face off. If the WWII vets could do that, then I should be able to try something only mildly life threatening. That's how I'm going to think next time I try something (say, kayaking?) that makes my heart try to scramble out of my esophagus. I will scream aloud, "IT'S NOT WAR!" It's my new mantra. And conquering fear is another way to get better at life.

First things first...

This probably should have been my first blog post, but logical sequences of events have never found their way into my life. I guess I should throw my intentions out there (just in case the title is dubious). I've never really had a hobby or something I've been super good at doing. Being in school for 8 years has always been my excuse (the only thing I excelled at in undergrad was functioning on a high academic level as a probable alcoholic and pharmacy school was pretty much the same). I spend most of my time finding stuff that sounds awesome until I try it and realize it's kinda hard/boring/time consuming, etc. Then I move on to the next whim. This may seem like a character defect to some, but a good friend once told me that it made me good at life. This was an epiphany. Something you see as a fault in your persona (lack of commitment, dedication, short attention span, etc.) can be perceived in a positive way and turned into a big batch of awesome. So even though I don't feel like it most of the time, I'm going with the impression that I'm good at life, and I'm expanding on it. I'm going to chronicle my whims here and maybe one or two will stick. Maybe not. Either way, it has to be more fun than pharmacy...

Being good while feeling like damnit

I've had a lot of time to think about being good at life the last few days. I've been laid up on the couch with a fever. I feel like I've been hit by a semi. So of course I'm trying to plot out my great comeback to life, just as soon as I can move without feeling like I'm dragging a boulder behind me. In all of my misery, I have been looking for ways to optimize my health and prevent ever being sick again. I know that improving my diet is going to be key, but I'm a big fan of the drive through and the Filet O' Fish (even reading Fast Food Nation hasn't stopped me completely). And the Pharm Parties we have (with candy, not drugs) are definitely not high on healthy eating scale. I'm always looking for a fast fix, so I ordered the Amazing Grass Green SuperFood capsules and the Organic Wheat Grass Powder. Five caps a day and one wheat grass smoothie and I'm on my way to superhuman energy. Maybe. It's got to be better than nothing, right? Here is the link:

http://www.amazinggrass.com/

In order to be good at life, you have to not feel like shit. So I'm on a quest for energy and stamina, two things I've been lacking. For someone who ran a marathon in October, I am incredibly out of shape. I have lots of excuses, some of which I will go into later, but none good enough to matter. Part of this is going to be learning not to make excuses and just making "it" (whatever "it" is at the moment) happen.
Goals for tomorrow and beyond:

1. Run (no promises on how far or how long)
2. Drink water
3. Take ye ol' superfoods and try to stay out of the drive through/candy aisle

I know it doesn't sound like much, but you have to start somewhere on the road to life domination.